hmmmmmph - missin you

`surprize surprize

was going thru my homepage of orkut n i saw Vjs name there in recently visited people's list. hmmmm . i am curious wht made her come to my page. birthday bhee a rahi hey uski :). mama's birthday passed few days back too. cudnt wish her nor i wud be able to wish vj now. hmmmph. tuff stuff. kia ho raha hey kyun ho raha hey, kuch khas samajh tu nahi a rahi leikin honay do, pehlay bhee kuch nahi kar saka, tu abh kia kar lounga , Loser :). sahi karti thee woh, she used to make L using her fingers n used to bug me with tht, n it quite fits me. she was never wrong. hope u r doing better n am nowhere around to haunt u.

`wakt

eik woh din tha jab meyre ghussay nei duboo dia mujhay
n aj woh din hey keh jab mey baree baree baatain sun kar khamosh ho jata houn, ye wakt kia cheiz hey, yeh kaisey apni chal chalta hey, yeh samajhna chahounga mei kisi din. kho chuka mei bohat kuch, abh pata nahi yeh wakt aur kia lainay chahayga mujh sey, kuch bacha he nahi meyre pass tu

`Lhr Trip

Guys had planned a get together last weekend and i opted to go. so left for Pindi on friday night n had to leave for lhr at 1 pm from pindi via daewoo. khair i stayed the night at shami's place, he picked me up from daewoo at 12 30 at night n ghar pohanchay n had juice n etc n then we had nice chit chat abt past n went thru some pix. tara had to leave with me but the next day when he was coming, traffic police bugged him since he didnt hav the car papers with him n his license, khair he didnt go n then i dropped the daewoo plan n left with alvi n chodhry n khawar n juma in alvis car else i was plannin to goto Tambola in islamabad club as asfa was insistin a lot. so many ppl to meet, so many events but practical life, time he nahi milta abt tu. 2nd ko concert per bhee jana hey, invitation hey hmmm lets if i can make it. khair lhr pohanchay rat 9 n seedha went to defence club, wahan dinner tha n wahan se we went to liberty n the guys had PAN n etc. n then we left for the flats in H Block in defence, thts where i stayed foro a week. the atmosphere was like scheme 3 m arket there, reminded me of my uni days. i will continue the story later n add pix too, ba byes

am in pesh, came back from lhr business trip after a week, ,went to pindi n left for pesh in the evening n here i am now, home sweet home, after 4 months hmmmph. i used to call u from home whenever i used to come. uZed to

`Only Hope

`the plans tht we had for each other :)

`hmmmmmph :)

dard pyar pyar dard dard pyar pyar dard pyar aur maut
eik din
achanak
lakeeroun ko mita kar
andha bana kar
khooun sukha kar
saans nikal kar
ley jaogi tum mujhay
aur phir shuro hoga
hisab meyre gunahoun ka
aur sabh sey upar hoga darj
kissa tumhay zindagi bhar ka dhukh daynay ka
la jawab ho kar mene kabool kar laina hei
har ilzam tumhara
:) eik din

`sayin sumthin stupid lyk i luv u?

`they say
Pyar toh jhoota wada hai
kabh koi pyar nibhata hei

ehsas dila kar chahat ka
har koi juda ho jata hei

`n i say
wada bhee sacha aur pyar bhee
tumhai bhee mila aur mujhay bhee

juda hoey tu majboorio ki wajah see
kami agr nahi aee hei tu pyar mei

han tumhay tu yehi pata hei keh meine nibhaya nahi
leikin abh bhee eik he shaks dil o demagh mei hei

woh tum ho :)

pyar bhee hei aur hum bheee
aur agr tum nahi is khani mei abh
tu tum bewafa nahi, majboor thee
pyar karnay ki shart eik dosray ka hamaisha ka sath nahi houta
pyar eik ehsaas hei,ghiza hei rooh ki
nazr nahi ata kabhi, leikin houta hei aas paas n zinda

`raZoR

khush kismat hei woh pathar jo tumharay kadmo talay aey
mei tu dhool kehlanay kay laik bhee na reh sakaa
eik wakt tha jab tum fakhr sey meyra zikr karti thee
abh tu meyra khyal bhee ata hoga tu dil badwa deyta hoga
it really doesnt take much time for turnin a king into a slave
kabhi tu meyre ansoo jaan sey bhee zyada aziz thay
abh tu mazak bhee nahi, shooo shaaa lagtay hongay

dil kehta hei aisa na soucho, zaroori nai aisa ho bhee
phir kambakht khudi tok kar kehta hei, mene dia he kia siwa dukh kay
woh acha sochay tu bhala kyun ?

Sorry :/

aj uhta houn n tumhari fragrance sense hoi
hmmm n a flash of moments went thru my mind which we shared :)
made me miss u more. neways hope u r enjoyin the sunday n late uthi hogi balkay cats ki tarhan blanket sey nikalnay ko dil he nahi kar raha hoga tumhara :).
ho tu lioness na. hav a gud day.

ley kar eik khanjar
karo waar mujh per
mei ankhain bandh kar lounga
isko bhee pyar he samajh lounga
bus jan saans sath chor daynay lagay
meri hathayli per apni ungli rakh laina
mila daina mujhay mitti mei
khaaak kay sath khaak ban laynay deyna

goonji see hei , saree hey saree fizaaa
jaisey bajhti houn, shehnaeean

lehrati heyn, mehki hawaaa
gungunati heyn tanhaeeyan

sabh gaatay heyn, sabh he madhosh heyn
hum tum kyun khamosh heyn

saaze dil cheyro naa
chup ho kyun, gaoo naaa

aoo na , aoo naa
aooo naa, aooo naa

:) itna pyar dey kar chali gaeee ho keh khatam nahi hoga, hmmpph. Allah ki naimat, pyar nahi tu i duno, banda kis dheiz kay base per zinda rahay, other than hate n revenge

`behind iz the autumn ov my life...

`har raat andheyre mei tumhai roshni ki tarhan dhondta houn
jab kay khooob pata hey k andheeri meri abh ye rah hei
chahtay na chahtay hoe bhee tumhay mei bohat chahta houn
jab kay chor chuki ho tum mujhai meri kamzorio ki wajah se
mehsos karata tha tumhai mei pyar apna
eik din tumne keh dia keh abh mei waisa nahi
deydi gaali meyre pyar ko
abh tu marnay ko bhee dil nahi karta hei
likh dieah heyn ye ansoo mene apni chahat kay naam
jo eik paree kay leah hei
jisne mujhay asmaano ki seir karaee
aur bana dia jo mei aj houn
nikalti hei tu siraf dwa tumharay leah
jan lo tum, han mei bura houn, bohat bura houn :)

cheeeer kay guzr jati hey woh baaat
poray jism mei dard ki eik lehr guzar deyti hei
meri pori zindagi ho gaee hei naam us baat kay
shayad kisi din ye kashti kinare ja lagaygi
per kia sahil tabh yakeen kar sakayga keh mei musafir tha

pyar tu ne kia kiaaaaaaah
ye pyar tu ne kia kiyaaaaaaah
eik he pal mei achaanak dee hey naee duniah
dee heyn naee khushian :)

`wish u were here

lyk da air i breathe
the beauty i see
i fragrance that i sense
n breeze that i feel

hmph. slap slap , wake up, reality awaits me. :)

left widout regret
so ez 4get
did it really happen
if it waz so ez 2 4get
reality to dream
n dreamz on da starz

`pink

think pink

`kaza kar k bhee roye, ada kar k bhee roye

kabhi zindagi se gila kar kay roey
kabhi maut ki dua kar ke roye
ajeeb silsila hai nimaz e muhabbat
kaza kar k bhe roey, ada kar k bhee roye :)

not my words, but liked it so pasted them here

`ehsaas hei mujhay

behtar thay, behtar hein
meri khatir unko bura samjha tumney, kia kia nahi kia tumney meri wajah sei
aur aj meyre naam ka dhaba tumharay dil per lag chuka hei
pata nahi kia houta hoga

tumhari baatain yaad ati rehti heyn mujhay
kitnay pyar sei tum mastian karti thee
kitna khyal rakha tumney meyra
sabh kuch tu kia tumney meyre leah
mene tumhay kia dia?
kuch bhee nahi
yaad bhe tum karti hogi tu dard houta hoga
nazr bhee a gaya kabhi tu mounh pheir lougi
kabhi naam bhee sunaee dia tu ignore karna parayga tumhay
n kia pata dil sei badwa niklay meyre leah
hmmmph bohat sawal hain
aur inka jawab koi nahi

`doeZnt exiZt heyna

Sparrow waz in luv wd a white roze. It propozed da white roze n the roze told da sparrow tht when it will turn red, he'll luv heR then. Da spaRRow toRe heR body apart n spRead heR blud on da floweR n tuRnd him Red. Da RoZe waZ in luV wid heR but she had left. hmmmmph lil modification but woRkz. u'Ve sacrafiZed eVrythin 4me n left n all i can do iZ, luV u moRe each passin day. u r incredible :).i mizz yew

`a mild smile

yeh bhee hona tha, eik bar pehlay bhee tumne doubt kia tha mujhay mobs waley case mei n again the finger iz pointin 2wrdz me
is bar mei koi safaee nahi donga, tum jo saoch rahi ho sahi hei, jo kehna he kehlo, sunounga sabh, parhonga sabh leikin eik lfz na bolounga aur na he reply karonga

n i hope its helping u forget me, me as stain n major chunk of bad memorieZ in yr life

luv u, khush raho

`hair Cut

i experimented again today
i look funny... lol @ myself