eik taraf nafrat ki intiha
dosri taraf muhabbat asman ko choo rahi hei
tum mujhay bar bar bata rahi ho keh yeh sabh meyra dia huwa hei
n yeh dukh aur yeh dard aur yeh ansoo meyre deah hoey tohfay hey
aur eik hum hein, keh yehi sun na chahtay heyn,
pata hei keh bardasht nahi hota, hazm nahi houta leikin haan
in ansooan, dard n dhukh ka mei he sabab houn

pyar tu nahi milta abh, na he woh pyar bharay alfaz meyre leah likhay jatay heyn
leikin atleast nafrat tu zahir karti ho meyre leah, yaad tu houn kisi tarhan

eik taraf nafrat ki intiha
dosri taraf muhabbat asman ko choo rahi hei
tum mujhay bar bar bata rahi ho keh yeh sabh meyra dia huwa hei
n yeh dukh aur yeh dard aur yeh ansoo meyre deah hoey tohfay hey
aur eik hum hein, keh yehi sun na chahtay heyn,
pata hei keh bardasht nahi hota, hazm nahi houta leikin haan
in ansooan, dard n dhukh ka mei he sabab houn

pyar tu nahi milta abh, na he woh pyar bharay alfaz meyre leah likhay jatay heyn
leikin atleast nafrat tu zahir karti ho meyre leah, yaad tu houn kisi tarhan

eik taraf nafrat ki intiha
dosri taraf muhabbat asman ko choo rahi hei
tum mujhay bar bar bata rahi ho keh yeh sabh meyra dia huwa hei
n yeh dukh aur yeh dard aur yeh ansoo meyre deah hoey tohfay hey
aur eik hum hein, keh yehi sun na chahtay heyn,
pata hei keh bardasht nahi hota, hazm nahi houta leikin haan
in ansooan, dard n dhukh ka mei he sabab houn

pyar tu nahi milta abh, na he woh pyar bharay alfaz meyre leah likhay jatay heyn
leikin atleast nafrat tu zahir karti ho meyre leah, yaad tu houn kisi tarhan

someone added me on orkut n she has put pic of you as her display pic, i duno wht the fuk iz happening. who got hold of yr pic hmmmph
i cant even do much abt it, who am i to do so? no one. right
but i just asked her how did she get hold of it n etc
hope no one is tryin to screw around. When shez in peace n done with a badluck like me, why wud sumonelike to make her go thru all n if somone is tryin to hurt me by makin me think of all tht again, a mistake, coz i never forgot anything

`though i have gone blind
but still i see you
cant stop;
thinkin abt you
seeing you
feelin yr przence
feel your hatred
go thru snapshots of wht v had

n i know very well itz gone
maybe 4ever
but i promised tht i'll luv u 4ever
n i istill mean tht

but i undrstand a lot of me made u go
lil bit of time dragged u away
pieces of me still may be haunting you
but i m not what you deserved 2 bear 4ever
for a lot of wht i lack n a lil bit of what you you thought i m
hate . mistake . never again . is wht i hear
4rm you , but i ............... :)

tumhay nahi mehsoos houta meyra pyar , yehi kehti thee na tum
yehi lagta tha na keh i am no more interested in you .

kia kahoun, kuch nahi

`so long. Havnt heard your voice. 18 monthz since i last saw you. I Mizz everythin, specially tht feelin ov being luvd n tht too by V. hmmmph.

went to Khalid mamo's house on the third or 4th day of eid, i don't remember exactly. Mobby Bhae's kids have grown cute , specially the youngest n eldest daughters. the youngest one, i took few snaps of her n she wanted me to take more n more of her n then all the kids gathered. Ahmed was around too but he was too busy with other lil things of his interest. So i made Rania take few snaps of me with kindz coz i believe tht only animals n kidz luv me now. I guess they r the only innocent living things around which can bear me. So Until these kids r not too old, they will keep luving me n then one gud day :) . My Hopes r not high, n i dont call tht a fact, i would call tht a natural way. Survival of the fittest.

3:21 am - Red Bull
you on my mind.

neways, am curious how u r n wht u r upto these days. hmmm. n i am still curious n u know it, we leos , when we r curious , we r not at peace untill we stuff our curosity but then, this is just the beginning, as the time pass, the distances will increase n some day, we two souls would end up being in different parts of ......... how sure v were of ourselvez. how very strong v were. never imagined this could take place but it is taking place. this is real. v r not together n mayb 4ever coz i wud never wish tht u may get sumthin which u said no to once. once sumthing loses respect, it iz never the same again. neways hope i dont haunt u much n u accept me as a bad dream or bad memory n bad bad bad bad etc nething n forget me to major extent. i have given u tons n tons ofo reasons n i will continue u give u those n i know u get the news from yr pals n etc abt me being this n tht n all :). n i am thakful to all those sources who r doign tht coz this is wht i want, though they think they r not helping me but yes they r :).

life aint bad at all, it looks bad only, but in there, it is superb. Luv u Allah for givin me whtever i have.

she fukin hates me :)

we went to lhr, to neos
3 years back :) . we were WE then, it is I n Her now. :)