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found n lost .... lost n found
lost the way n got betrayed coz deserved
found a heart but then lost that path
ran n stopped ... stopped n ran again
ran from past and took refuge from it too
stopped to get done what was left but run because I can’t have peace and rest
smiled n cried .....cried n smiled... coz ov him
smile on memories n cry on my miseries
smile still coz u gav the hope knowin or not knowin

`happie4yew

gud yar, am so happie, u r carryin on with yr creativity, keep the gud work on with the mag :)
a lil one iz growin too n shez being as smart as u were, maybe tum peechay reh jaogi us sey but then thats sumthing u'll luv. n yr dp iz gud :). rize rize rizeeeeeeeeeeeee

`change yrself

When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits. I dreamed of changing the world.As I grew older and wiser, I discovered the world would not change, so I shortened my sights somewhat and decided to change only my country.But it too seemed impossibleAs I grew my twilight years, on one last desperate attempt, I settled for changing my family, those closest to me, but alas they would have none of it.And now as I lie on my deathbed. I suddenly realize if I had only changed myself first then I would have been able to change others.

`anotherday - justbelieve n breathe

i feel coz it hurts
it hurts coz i want to feel

it livez coz it gives me strength
am stronger coz it lives

i failed coz i wasnt gud enuff
u failed coz u failed to choose

i'll b around coz i want to witness
u won't know tht, coz u shudn't

`iz tht da truth

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.

The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance sofast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

`da vry frst tym - tum ney mujhay koni maree jan bojh ker

`he had nevr seen her. atlast one fyn day, they decided 2 meet. he lived in da hostel n he used to call her up from the telebooth in the market. Often his friendz used to observe him talking to her but they nevr knew who she was. Neways she told him they shud meet, he put his camaflouge pajamas on n a black tea shirt with it, got in the cab n left for the place. when he was abt to reach the place where they had to see each other, he saw her headin towards tht place by walk. he got off the cab n started followin her. So many thots we going thru his mind, he didnt know how he will talk n wht she will say n so many such questionz were arizin in his mind. He crossed her while walkin n he had a naughty shy smile on his face. She noticed him and she shreiked. He started walkin fast n then he heard her call his name n he stopped n she came upto him n they exchanged few words n headed to the market. there together they went to few shops, bought chocolate n went thru some cute cards n went to the bakery n then atlast they wanted to sit n talk n they found those stairs. it was one fine day n it was evenin already. They didnt hav much time but the feeling of being together was great. they sat n talked n shared smiles n jokes n togetherness. then, they had to say byes and both left. She headed to her home n he headed to the hostel. that was the very first time they met :). They luVd each other so very much, wherever they are, i hope they r happie.

`k am bad

but doesnt mean u had to tdo hat
but then u hav all theh right to insult me

`a lesson

A man found a cocoon for a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared, he sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through the little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could and could go no farther. Then the man decided to help the butterfly.
He took a pair of scissors and snipped the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. Something was strange. The butterfly had a swollen body and shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened. In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and deformed wings. It was never able to fly.
What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand, was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the small opening of the cocoon are God`s way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon. Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life.
If God allowed us to go through all our life without any obstacles, that would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Not only that, we could never fly.

`sportz gala 06

`Day 1: bruised knee, injured hip bone n lil twisted ankle

lost football
into semi of basketball
lost volleyball
going gud in squash n lawn tennis
semi's of table tennis doubles

all the best to me n my team n omar n his team.

12:56 am - 13th, April

eik dard sa jaga kar
un maree hoey lehro ko jaga kar
kidhar chalee gaee .... ay hawaa

`only i am mizzin - useless thingz r alwayz left behind

i wish i cud smash everything around me to bits...how can ppl b so rude?! *arrrrrrghhhh!* n i wonder y i waste my connection, my tym, myself over complete assholes! but nothin wud matter to any1 ever, im so pizzed! i wish hammy was online, i wudnt haf to be bored beyond belief! crap! even rez wud do, in tym like this, i miss adil so much, tho he was a lil flirty, but he wud coem to me, leavin anythin fuckin thing behind, thts wat i liked bout him. he used to show each n every friggin emotion. n iv i was ever :( he wud try his butt out to make me smile...*sigh* y doz life treat me so bad?! m so fed up ov this friggin life, im jes so fed up...i wonder wen this turmoil wud end up. i want to leave this place, once n fer all...ferever.
lost myself. my soul. @ 10:06 AM

`as da tearz conquer da desert, i let 'em know, derz no treasure left n dey shud stop da search,for da treasure will b deliverd 2 da destination safely, Inshallah

`nuthing lastZ 4evr

Hath this last pace,My spans last
inch,My mintues last point
And gluttonous death,will instantly unjoynt.
My body,my soule,and,
I shall sleepe a space,
But my 'ever working part' shall see that face,
Whose feare already shakes my every joint:
Then as my soule, to heaven his first seate
Takes flight; and earth borne body,in the
earth shall dwell.so fall my sinnes,
That all may have their right.
To where they' are bred' and would presse me,
to hell. Thus purg'd of evil,
For thus i leave the world,the flesh and The Devil.

`dr3nched in doaze m3mor!eZ

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`that angel

I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far

`smoke it, fade it, slowly, wid pleazure n pain

`do pal

tum thay k thee koi ujli kiran , tum thay ya koi kali muskaee thi

`ghosts?

find out yrself
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