`it all keeps coming back to me

`i went thru my diary n those textz , some of them, dated feb start which were sent to me once upon a time. We were strugglin even then but u had faith in me then n yr words were in my favor. you were all around me n it was us being together n helping each other.

on 31 Jan, 04 u said "Valen iz in the air, so bot some cardz 4u,bohat yad arahe thay, saw a couple so happy 2gdr,thot ov us n r joyz,hope v can get all r wishez"

n this is all i am left with now,memories of you n me, or you and tht Zen, who was lucky to be luvd by you. u cared so much n u were always concerned abt us. it was never abt u only, u used to take me along everywhere

n then on 1st Feb "Na yar naraz q hongi,m k,bus day waz borin,waz singin 4u abhi,m wid u,fytin arguin but luving u,luv u my zen".

each phrase by u showed yr concern, infact still makes me feel how much u cared for me n i am left with nothin. Am scared to even ask myself wht u wud b upto at the moment, wht would be keeping you occupied and happy and in a better state overall. n i still go thru those songz tht u had sung for me :), they make me miss u more n luv u even more. n i was tellin a friend of mine how u taught me this bloggin n writing stuff n today in yr absence, this is my support. at times it makes me feel as if i am talkin to u and i am gettin replies. hmmmmmmph. i miss yew