`only i am mizzin - useless thingz r alwayz left behind

i wish i cud smash everything around me to bits...how can ppl b so rude?! *arrrrrrghhhh!* n i wonder y i waste my connection, my tym, myself over complete assholes! but nothin wud matter to any1 ever, im so pizzed! i wish hammy was online, i wudnt haf to be bored beyond belief! crap! even rez wud do, in tym like this, i miss adil so much, tho he was a lil flirty, but he wud coem to me, leavin anythin fuckin thing behind, thts wat i liked bout him. he used to show each n every friggin emotion. n iv i was ever :( he wud try his butt out to make me smile...*sigh* y doz life treat me so bad?! m so fed up ov this friggin life, im jes so fed up...i wonder wen this turmoil wud end up. i want to leave this place, once n fer all...ferever.
lost myself. my soul. @ 10:06 AM

`as da tearz conquer da desert, i let 'em know, derz no treasure left n dey shud stop da search,for da treasure will b deliverd 2 da destination safely, Inshallah